(Thursday, January 31, 2008/8:12 PM)
one-word
i was coming up with stuff to post on the way back.
then i forgot everything.
today was. once again normal.
everything sort of fell into place.
except one thing.
which i am still awaiting a decision from a certain someone for.
anyway.
i guess in all that we do,
sometimes the situation cannot be changed.
when hope looks the brightest.
everything falls back into mundane.
not that it's a bad thing.
but it isn't a good thing either.
but be optimistic.
for we're all going to die anyway.
and away we go.
i was coming up with stuff to post on the way back.
then i forgot everything.
today was. once again normal.
everything sort of fell into place.
except one thing.
which i am still awaiting a decision from a certain someone for.
anyway.
i guess in all that we do,
sometimes the situation cannot be changed.
when hope looks the brightest.
everything falls back into mundane.
not that it's a bad thing.
but it isn't a good thing either.
but be optimistic.
for we're all going to die anyway.
and away we go.
(Wednesday, January 30, 2008/6:33 PM)
anyway
hmm...
you;
i showed my teacher the piece.
she claims its too hard.
and i have my grade 7 so.
that will have to come before this.
i'll try to rush.
sorry.
i copied your style. xD
like you're reading this anyway.
anyway.
today was sort of another normal day.
i guess.
but no news is good news.
and actually come to think of it i will wait quietly.
because i don't want to trouble you.
i don't want to cause you more stress than i already have.
so i'll wait.
quietly.
till we can get back together again.
what is my purpose in life.
maybe it's to help you with yours.
hold hands around in a line.
and travel the world, cruel and beautiful.
that is life.
hmm...
you;
i showed my teacher the piece.
she claims its too hard.
and i have my grade 7 so.
that will have to come before this.
i'll try to rush.
sorry.
i copied your style. xD
like you're reading this anyway.
anyway.
today was sort of another normal day.
i guess.
but no news is good news.
and actually come to think of it i will wait quietly.
because i don't want to trouble you.
i don't want to cause you more stress than i already have.
so i'll wait.
quietly.
till we can get back together again.
what is my purpose in life.
maybe it's to help you with yours.
hold hands around in a line.
and travel the world, cruel and beautiful.
that is life.
(Tuesday, January 29, 2008/7:50 PM)
power
today was. well.
i don't know how to express it.
maybe...normal.
ordinary.
too ordinary.
mundane.
And back to the books,
The studies, the work.
Back to the enjoyment,
The tv, the play.
Nothing else stood in our way.
Only the fact that we hadn't much to say.
But the ordinary.
Ordinary people with extraordinary powers.
That is what makes us who we are.
today was well.
i don't know how to express it.
maybe...normal.
ordinary.
too ordinary.
mundane.
so back to life i shall get.
and part once again.
back to the demeanour of that which is life.
and back to the utopia of that which is life.
today was. well.
i don't know how to express it.
maybe...normal.
ordinary.
too ordinary.
mundane.
And back to the books,
The studies, the work.
Back to the enjoyment,
The tv, the play.
Nothing else stood in our way.
Only the fact that we hadn't much to say.
But the ordinary.
Ordinary people with extraordinary powers.
That is what makes us who we are.
today was well.
i don't know how to express it.
maybe...normal.
ordinary.
too ordinary.
mundane.
so back to life i shall get.
and part once again.
back to the demeanour of that which is life.
and back to the utopia of that which is life.
(Sunday, January 27, 2008/1:52 PM)
hah
finally.
i was waiting.
this makes one-winged angel so last last last last year. >.> <.<
片翼のイカロス
歌:榊原ゆい
作詞:上松範康
作曲:上松範康
編曲:藤間仁
無くした過去 飛べない空 消えない傷も
君がいたから 笑い合えたんだ…
蒼の丘には ぎゅっとした思い出が
降り積もり僕に夢を与える
星の夜には 遠くオリオン指して
羽が無い事を忘れた
僕は光がなくて それで良かった
ただ君だけは 「どうして？」と僕を見ては
泣いた…
「鳥になれば風になれば叶うのかな？」
僕はそんな意地悪言って
「二人でなら手を合わせて翼だね」
強い君の声に 鳴呼 何故か涙が溢れてた
君はいつでも 僕の陽だまりだから
眩しすぎてたまにつらくなるよ
はしゃいだ記憶 恋を指切りしたら
「ありがとう」が心焦がした
そして世界は急に 動き出すんだ
モノクロの花は 虹のように咲くはずさ
きっと…
「色褪せない思い出たち胸にいますか？」
緑広がる 高原翔けて
ふと両手を広げたなら感じるはず
そうさ無限の今 さあ唄と共に羽ばたこうよ
つないだ手は 雲を切って
大空という 居場所くれた
守る強さは 生きる強さ
もっと高く もっと高く
飛んでみたいから… Ah
「鳥になれば風になれば叶うのかな？」
僕はそんな意地悪言って
「二人でなら手を合わせて翼だね」
強い君の声に 鳴呼 何故か涙が溢れてた
Katayoku no Ikarosu
Vocals: Sakakibara Yui
Nakushita kako tobenai sora kienai kizu mo
Kimi ga ita kara waraiaeta n da…
Ao no oka ni wa gyuttoshita omoide ga
Furitsumori boku ni yume o ataeru
Hoshi no yoru ni wa tooku orion sashite
Hane ga nai koto o wasureta
Boku wa hikari ga nakute sore de yokatta
Tada kimi dake wa “doushite?” to boku o mite wa
Naita…
“Tori ni nareba kaze ni nareba kanau no kana?”
Boku wa sonna ijiwaru itte
“Futari de nara te o awasete tsubasa da ne”
Tsuyoi kimi no koe ni aa nazeka namida ga afureteta
Kimi wa itsu demo boku no hidamari da kara
Mabushisugite tama ni tsuraku naru yo
Hashaida kioku koi o yubikirishitara
“Arigatou” ga kokoro kogashita
Soshite sekai wa kyuu ni ugokidasu n da
Monokuro no hana wa niji no you ni saku hazu wa
Kitto…
“Iroasenai omoide-tachi mune ni imasu ka?”
Midori hirogaru kougen kakete
Futo ryoute o hirogeta nara kanjiru hazu
Sou sa mugen no ima saa uta to tomo ni habatakou yo
Tsunaida te wa kumo o kitte
Oozora to iu ibasho kureta
Mamoru tsuyosa wa ikiru tsuyosa
Motto takaku motto takaku
Tonde mitai kara… Ah
“Tori ni nareba kaze ni nareba kanau no kana?”
Boku wa sonna ijiwaru itte
“Futari de nara te o awasete tsubasa da ne”
Tsuyoi kimi no koe ni aa nazeka namida ga afureteta
One-Winged Icarus
Vocals: Sakakibara Yui
Lyrics: Agematsu Noriyasu
Composition: Agematsu Noriyasu
Arrangement: Fujima Hitoshi
Even with a lost past, an unflyable sky, and indelible wounds
Because you were here, we could laugh together…
On the blue hill, the recollections that I held tightly
Accumulate and give me a dream
On a starry night, I pointed at the distant Orion
And forgot that I don’t have wings
It’s okay that I don’t have light
It’s just that only you said, “Why?”, looked at me
And cried…
“If I become a bird, if I become the wind, will my wish be fulfilled?”
I’m saying it so nastily
“If we’re together, then join our hands, they’re wings”
From the voice of you, who are strong, ah, somehow tears overflowed
Because you’re my sunny spot at all times
You’re too bright and it gets painful occasionally
When my memories that frolicked made a pinky promise on love
“Thank you,” distressed my heart
And the world abruptly begins to move
The monochrome flowers should bloom like the rainbow
Surely…
“Are there unfading recollections in your chest?”
Soaring through the plateau where greenery unfolds
If we suddenly spread our hands, then we must’ve felt it
That’s right, at the infinite now, c’mon, let’s fly along with our song
Our join hands cut through the clouds
And gave me a place to be, known as the heavens
The strength to protect is the strength to live
Because I want to try flying
Higher and higher… Ah
“If I become a bird, if I become the wind, will my wish be fulfilled?”
I’m saying it so nastily
“If we’re together, then join our hands, they’re wings”
From the voice of you, who are strong, ah, somehow tears overflowed
ah.
somehow the good quality one is taking forever to come.
forget it. i give in to xvid.
for this week.
if you were the bird and i was the wind.
i'll push you forward with all my might.
only forward.
with all i can give.
finally.
i was waiting.
this makes one-winged angel so last last last last year. >.> <.<
片翼のイカロス
歌:榊原ゆい
作詞:上松範康
作曲:上松範康
編曲:藤間仁
無くした過去 飛べない空 消えない傷も
君がいたから 笑い合えたんだ…
蒼の丘には ぎゅっとした思い出が
降り積もり僕に夢を与える
星の夜には 遠くオリオン指して
羽が無い事を忘れた
僕は光がなくて それで良かった
ただ君だけは 「どうして？」と僕を見ては
泣いた…
「鳥になれば風になれば叶うのかな？」
僕はそんな意地悪言って
「二人でなら手を合わせて翼だね」
強い君の声に 鳴呼 何故か涙が溢れてた
君はいつでも 僕の陽だまりだから
眩しすぎてたまにつらくなるよ
はしゃいだ記憶 恋を指切りしたら
「ありがとう」が心焦がした
そして世界は急に 動き出すんだ
モノクロの花は 虹のように咲くはずさ
きっと…
「色褪せない思い出たち胸にいますか？」
緑広がる 高原翔けて
ふと両手を広げたなら感じるはず
そうさ無限の今 さあ唄と共に羽ばたこうよ
つないだ手は 雲を切って
大空という 居場所くれた
守る強さは 生きる強さ
もっと高く もっと高く
飛んでみたいから… Ah
「鳥になれば風になれば叶うのかな？」
僕はそんな意地悪言って
「二人でなら手を合わせて翼だね」
強い君の声に 鳴呼 何故か涙が溢れてた
Katayoku no Ikarosu
Vocals: Sakakibara Yui
Nakushita kako tobenai sora kienai kizu mo
Kimi ga ita kara waraiaeta n da…
Ao no oka ni wa gyuttoshita omoide ga
Furitsumori boku ni yume o ataeru
Hoshi no yoru ni wa tooku orion sashite
Hane ga nai koto o wasureta
Boku wa hikari ga nakute sore de yokatta
Tada kimi dake wa “doushite?” to boku o mite wa
Naita…
“Tori ni nareba kaze ni nareba kanau no kana?”
Boku wa sonna ijiwaru itte
“Futari de nara te o awasete tsubasa da ne”
Tsuyoi kimi no koe ni aa nazeka namida ga afureteta
Kimi wa itsu demo boku no hidamari da kara
Mabushisugite tama ni tsuraku naru yo
Hashaida kioku koi o yubikirishitara
“Arigatou” ga kokoro kogashita
Soshite sekai wa kyuu ni ugokidasu n da
Monokuro no hana wa niji no you ni saku hazu wa
Kitto…
“Iroasenai omoide-tachi mune ni imasu ka?”
Midori hirogaru kougen kakete
Futo ryoute o hirogeta nara kanjiru hazu
Sou sa mugen no ima saa uta to tomo ni habatakou yo
Tsunaida te wa kumo o kitte
Oozora to iu ibasho kureta
Mamoru tsuyosa wa ikiru tsuyosa
Motto takaku motto takaku
Tonde mitai kara… Ah
“Tori ni nareba kaze ni nareba kanau no kana?”
Boku wa sonna ijiwaru itte
“Futari de nara te o awasete tsubasa da ne”
Tsuyoi kimi no koe ni aa nazeka namida ga afureteta
One-Winged Icarus
Vocals: Sakakibara Yui
Lyrics: Agematsu Noriyasu
Composition: Agematsu Noriyasu
Arrangement: Fujima Hitoshi
Even with a lost past, an unflyable sky, and indelible wounds
Because you were here, we could laugh together…
On the blue hill, the recollections that I held tightly
Accumulate and give me a dream
On a starry night, I pointed at the distant Orion
And forgot that I don’t have wings
It’s okay that I don’t have light
It’s just that only you said, “Why?”, looked at me
And cried…
“If I become a bird, if I become the wind, will my wish be fulfilled?”
I’m saying it so nastily
“If we’re together, then join our hands, they’re wings”
From the voice of you, who are strong, ah, somehow tears overflowed
Because you’re my sunny spot at all times
You’re too bright and it gets painful occasionally
When my memories that frolicked made a pinky promise on love
“Thank you,” distressed my heart
And the world abruptly begins to move
The monochrome flowers should bloom like the rainbow
Surely…
“Are there unfading recollections in your chest?”
Soaring through the plateau where greenery unfolds
If we suddenly spread our hands, then we must’ve felt it
That’s right, at the infinite now, c’mon, let’s fly along with our song
Our join hands cut through the clouds
And gave me a place to be, known as the heavens
The strength to protect is the strength to live
Because I want to try flying
Higher and higher… Ah
“If I become a bird, if I become the wind, will my wish be fulfilled?”
I’m saying it so nastily
“If we’re together, then join our hands, they’re wings”
From the voice of you, who are strong, ah, somehow tears overflowed
ah.
somehow the good quality one is taking forever to come.
forget it. i give in to xvid.
for this week.
if you were the bird and i was the wind.
i'll push you forward with all my might.
only forward.
with all i can give.
(Saturday, January 26, 2008/9:03 PM)
today
was busy.
sadly i don't have any lyrics so i can't put the song up yet.
i fail at jap. maybe i'll take it as a h2 next year.
anyway.
MORNING:
0740 - wake up
0750 - turn on comp
0800 - eat breakfast
0802 - go back to comp
0845 - finish watching clannad.
0846 - realises i'm horribly late for piano lesson.
0847 - frantically runs about stuffing all my stuff into my bag.
0850 - get out of house.
0900 - board bus. ohs noes i'm late. =o
0910 - arrive at piano teacher's house.
1010 - finish lesson. as usual i just anyhow whack.
1015 - board bus.
1045 - drop off.
1100 - i'm in school. an hour early.
1105 - walk around.
1110 - walk around more.
1111 - enter SAC. you should have realised i just entered this in for the sake of the time. >.> <.<
1113 - find a place to sit.
1115 - start doing emaths.
1120 - see some guy i happen to know out of some circumstance.
1125 - see another guy i happen to know out of some circumstance.
1130 - see yet another guy i happen to know out of some circumstance.
1135 - see russell see. >.> he was there since 8 and now instead of starting up shop he was going to kap. sheesh.
1138 - buy lunch.
1140 - partake of lunch.
1145 - see yet another guy i happen to know out of some circumstance.
1147 - return utensils. see yet another guy i happen to know out of some circumstance.
1148 - head upstairs.
1150 - go back downstairs with sasha. ==
1155 - watch as sasha eats his big bowl of noodles while gulping down his big drink. fit for a big guy.
AFTERNOON:
1200 - bazaar started sort of. but i'm still watching sasha eat.
1205 - sasha finishes. we leave.
1210 - i go look for doong in the bb room.
1215 - find doong. get useless info.
1217 - get back upstairs.
1220 - start work.
in between - it was stupid. but i worked hard. happy now, chartiy? it's not even... shh.
1359 - finish work.
1405 - meet parents. go off to raffles. jubilee. hall.
1440 - get there. stand around.
1500 - enter hall.
in between - intermission
1730 - emerge from hall.
the musical was supposed to be sorta spiritual and religious and whatnot but no. well i guess it solves a many-centuries-old problem but sadly going to this extent is a bit too much.
EVENING:
1800 - go for dinner. i mutter that we go to a hawker centre for 5 minute food.
1830 - we did eat hawker food. only it took half an hour.
1840 - set off for NTUC. oh no.
in between - no i can't be bothered to elaborate.
1930 - set off for home.
2000 - reach.
2010 - shower.
2015 - turn on comp.
and here i am. albeit very late.
and so is the life of the ordinarily unique boy.
i come back home to find no new episodes.
boo.
ぶれ
was busy.
sadly i don't have any lyrics so i can't put the song up yet.
i fail at jap. maybe i'll take it as a h2 next year.
anyway.
MORNING:
0740 - wake up
0750 - turn on comp
0800 - eat breakfast
0802 - go back to comp
0845 - finish watching clannad.
0846 - realises i'm horribly late for piano lesson.
0847 - frantically runs about stuffing all my stuff into my bag.
0850 - get out of house.
0900 - board bus. ohs noes i'm late. =o
0910 - arrive at piano teacher's house.
1010 - finish lesson. as usual i just anyhow whack.
1015 - board bus.
1045 - drop off.
1100 - i'm in school. an hour early.
1105 - walk around.
1110 - walk around more.
1111 - enter SAC. you should have realised i just entered this in for the sake of the time. >.> <.<
1113 - find a place to sit.
1115 - start doing emaths.
1120 - see some guy i happen to know out of some circumstance.
1125 - see another guy i happen to know out of some circumstance.
1130 - see yet another guy i happen to know out of some circumstance.
1135 - see russell see. >.> he was there since 8 and now instead of starting up shop he was going to kap. sheesh.
1138 - buy lunch.
1140 - partake of lunch.
1145 - see yet another guy i happen to know out of some circumstance.
1147 - return utensils. see yet another guy i happen to know out of some circumstance.
1148 - head upstairs.
1150 - go back downstairs with sasha. ==
1155 - watch as sasha eats his big bowl of noodles while gulping down his big drink. fit for a big guy.
AFTERNOON:
1200 - bazaar started sort of. but i'm still watching sasha eat.
1205 - sasha finishes. we leave.
1210 - i go look for doong in the bb room.
1215 - find doong. get useless info.
1217 - get back upstairs.
1220 - start work.
in between - it was stupid. but i worked hard. happy now, chartiy? it's not even... shh.
1359 - finish work.
1405 - meet parents. go off to raffles. jubilee. hall.
1440 - get there. stand around.
1500 - enter hall.
in between - intermission
1730 - emerge from hall.
the musical was supposed to be sorta spiritual and religious and whatnot but no. well i guess it solves a many-centuries-old problem but sadly going to this extent is a bit too much.
EVENING:
1800 - go for dinner. i mutter that we go to a hawker centre for 5 minute food.
1830 - we did eat hawker food. only it took half an hour.
1840 - set off for NTUC. oh no.
in between - no i can't be bothered to elaborate.
1930 - set off for home.
2000 - reach.
2010 - shower.
2015 - turn on comp.
and here i am. albeit very late.
and so is the life of the ordinarily unique boy.
i come back home to find no new episodes.
boo.
ぶれ
(Thursday, January 24, 2008/10:31 PM)
rumba
i'll add a proper song tomorrow.
i guess.
anything else.
hmm.
i haven't been practising.
i hate that diagnostic test.
now i won't be able to get good marks.
but writing a story i like to write is nice.
only when it's for no purpose.
so that's another addition to the jobs list.
i wonder what else i can become.
shing's joblist
psychologist
piano teacher (fail)
some performer/singer (you wish)
author
NEW ADDITION: dictator
government census and sociology
whatever.
i guess the last one was stupid.
but the world's a cruel place.
and the war shall go on.
peace is war.
i can't take anymore.
i'll add a proper song tomorrow.
i guess.
anything else.
hmm.
i haven't been practising.
i hate that diagnostic test.
now i won't be able to get good marks.
but writing a story i like to write is nice.
only when it's for no purpose.
so that's another addition to the jobs list.
i wonder what else i can become.
shing's joblist
psychologist
piano teacher (fail)
some performer/singer (you wish)
author
NEW ADDITION: dictator
government census and sociology
whatever.
i guess the last one was stupid.
but the world's a cruel place.
and the war shall go on.
peace is war.
i can't take anymore.
(Wednesday, January 23, 2008/8:15 PM)
hmm
was wondering whether i should blog today.
oh i just did.
oh well.
back to the songs.
and the 7 apples.
and the sunshine pie.
and after the long journey i'll come back.
hopefully to see you waiting for me.
was wondering whether i should blog today.
oh i just did.
oh well.
back to the songs.
and the 7 apples.
and the sunshine pie.
and after the long journey i'll come back.
hopefully to see you waiting for me.
(Tuesday, January 22, 2008/9:30 PM)
journey
leaving the suffering that is school.
going and missing.
went there and missing.
important guest was here to pay.
noises and birthday.
food coming in.
laughing and screaming,
comical whim.
ate and talked.
tabasco in drink.
back to the old days.
i went to the sink.
as we left our seats.
the bill had yet to pay.
alot short. alot.
oh what a wonderful day.
summary.
mep ended at 6:05.
went down to roundabout.
took bus with chums to interchange.
completely missed tieh waving at us.
walked to nydc.
doh, nydc.
doh melvin.
doh birthday...
waited for the person himself.
talking about who should pay the bill.
he came and we told him to.
i asked about his hair.
oops.
ate and joked.
now i always either don't mention or forget (sometimes on purpose) whatever the jokes were.
but anyway.
>.> <.<
it was pretty fun.
well hopefully we'll be able to see him again.
and i feel like visiting tieh when i'm 20+ 30+
see if the receipt still there.
laminated.
or framed.
as he promised.
it's the same class all over again.
forgot to mention but...
good job the only group that made it as a whole.
the smart row.
and that's it for now i guess.
off he goes. and off we go.
gone is the crossroad.
hopefully the roads will meet.
once again.
お休み。
さよなら！
leaving the suffering that is school.
going and missing.
went there and missing.
important guest was here to pay.
noises and birthday.
food coming in.
laughing and screaming,
comical whim.
ate and talked.
tabasco in drink.
back to the old days.
i went to the sink.
as we left our seats.
the bill had yet to pay.
alot short. alot.
oh what a wonderful day.
summary.
mep ended at 6:05.
went down to roundabout.
took bus with chums to interchange.
completely missed tieh waving at us.
walked to nydc.
doh, nydc.
doh melvin.
doh birthday...
waited for the person himself.
talking about who should pay the bill.
he came and we told him to.
i asked about his hair.
oops.
ate and joked.
now i always either don't mention or forget (sometimes on purpose) whatever the jokes were.
but anyway.
>.> <.<
it was pretty fun.
well hopefully we'll be able to see him again.
and i feel like visiting tieh when i'm 20+ 30+
see if the receipt still there.
laminated.
or framed.
as he promised.
it's the same class all over again.
forgot to mention but...
good job the only group that made it as a whole.
the smart row.
and that's it for now i guess.
off he goes. and off we go.
gone is the crossroad.
hopefully the roads will meet.
once again.
お休み。
さよなら！
(Sunday, January 20, 2008/8:14 PM)
excerpts
of a random script i was requested to make.
of course. this time it's edited with the correct enters and spaces.
why is the sky blue? isn't it black?
why does everything appear only in light?
can't you see black?
black is the colour of nothing and so are you if you are experiencing hurt,
pain,
sorrow,
and depression
and can't get rid of it.
with everything we have
we must make the most of it
and after that one day we have to leave it.
that's what this world is about;
encounter and parting.
after all some encounters can last just a second
like this one
so treasure it no?
maybe.
maybe the sky will be blue again
and we can see with the light leading ahead.
maybe.
trust is an
important factor you put into everything.
you trust that
you will get up to see the clock at 6.
you trust that
the sun will rise like it always does.
you trust that
the sky will always be blue when there is light abountiful.
you trust that
your legs will be able to move.
and above all,
you trust that everyone else
is okay.
love is a thing that we cannot live with,
yet we don't treasure.
so pay attention to your love,
and everyone's love.
today.
...
adding on to that.
we are not scared because
we believe there will be light tomorrow.
we are not scared because
we believe everything will be fine tomorrow.
but what if it's not.
are we going to be
scared.
what's going to happen
then?
but what i know is.
if i am going to be trapped.
i will not be scared.
because the thought keeps me
safe from everything.
you can drive a knife
into me.
bullets.
into me.
and all that ever hurt me
i will feel.
but deep inside.
i am at peace.
sometimes we don't prepare
and we are caught off guard.
but wars and diseases
don't cut it all.
everyone is afraid.
afraid to.
die.
...
and thus ends the excerpt of
my wave of thought.
back to the books and
the homework, lost.
knowing that the day i
plunge into darkness
will no longer be one
full of fear and sadness
because in my mind i have you
you, you and you.
everyone of you.
all with me.
and together we will be unbreakable.
oh and side note.
song down there.
of a random script i was requested to make.
of course. this time it's edited with the correct enters and spaces.
why is the sky blue? isn't it black?
why does everything appear only in light?
can't you see black?
black is the colour of nothing and so are you if you are experiencing hurt,
pain,
sorrow,
and depression
and can't get rid of it.
with everything we have
we must make the most of it
and after that one day we have to leave it.
that's what this world is about;
encounter and parting.
after all some encounters can last just a second
like this one
so treasure it no?
maybe.
maybe the sky will be blue again
and we can see with the light leading ahead.
maybe.
trust is an
important factor you put into everything.
you trust that
you will get up to see the clock at 6.
you trust that
the sun will rise like it always does.
you trust that
the sky will always be blue when there is light abountiful.
you trust that
your legs will be able to move.
and above all,
you trust that everyone else
is okay.
love is a thing that we cannot live with,
yet we don't treasure.
so pay attention to your love,
and everyone's love.
today.
...
adding on to that.
we are not scared because
we believe there will be light tomorrow.
we are not scared because
we believe everything will be fine tomorrow.
but what if it's not.
are we going to be
scared.
what's going to happen
then?
but what i know is.
if i am going to be trapped.
i will not be scared.
because the thought keeps me
safe from everything.
you can drive a knife
into me.
bullets.
into me.
and all that ever hurt me
i will feel.
but deep inside.
i am at peace.
sometimes we don't prepare
and we are caught off guard.
but wars and diseases
don't cut it all.
everyone is afraid.
afraid to.
die.
...
and thus ends the excerpt of
my wave of thought.
back to the books and
the homework, lost.
knowing that the day i
plunge into darkness
will no longer be one
full of fear and sadness
because in my mind i have you
you, you and you.
everyone of you.
all with me.
and together we will be unbreakable.
oh and side note.
song down there.
(/9:21 AM)
new day
old world.
new song.
さいごの果実
歌:坂本真綾
作詞:坂本真綾
作曲:鈴木祥子
編曲:斉藤ネコ
探してばかりの僕たちは
鏡のようによく似てるから
向き合うだけで繋がるのに
触れ合うことはできないまま
目を凝らした
手を伸ばした
化石みたいに眠っている
開かれるのを待ち続ける
雨が降って
時は満ちて
ねぇ 僕は 僕は知りたい
愛するってどんなこと
君が微笑むと世界は
少し震えて輝いた
まるで呼吸するように動き出した
誰も守れない僕たちは
寝静まる街を駆け出した
水になって
風になって
手に入れるために争い
奪い合えば空しくて
僕が叫んでも世界は
何も言わずに背を向けた
まるで僕を試すように突き放した
一瞬を
永遠を
始まりを
最果てを
ねぇ 僕は 僕は知りたい
生きてくってどんなこと
僕が訊ねると世界は
少し震えて輝いた
僕に眠る真実を今静かに解き放つ
Saigo no Kajitsu
Vocals: Sakamoto Maaya
Sagashite bakari no boku-tachi wa
Kagami no you ni yoku niteru kara
Mukiau dake de tsunagaru no ni
Fureau koto wa dekinai mama
Me o korashita
Te o nobashita
Kaseki mitai ni nemutte iru
Hirakareru no o machitsuzukeru
Ame ga futte
Toki wa michite
Nee boku wa boku wa shiritai
Aisuru tte donna koto
Kimi ga hohoemu to sekai wa
Sukoshi furuete kagayaita
Maru de kokyuusuru you ni ugokidashita
Dare mo mamorenai boku-tachi wa
Neshizumaru machi o kakedashita
Mizu ni natte
Kaze ni natte
Te ni ireru tame ni arasoi
Ubaiaeba munashikute
Boku ga sakende mo sekai wa
Nani mo iwazu ni se o muketa
Maru de boku o tamesu you ni tsukihanashita
Isshun o
Eien o
Hajimari o
Saihate o
Nee boku wa boku wa shiritai
Ikiteku tte donna koto
Boku ga tazuneru to sekai wa
Sukoshi furuete kagayaita
Boku ni nemuru shinjitsu o ima shizuka ni tokihanatsu
The Last Fruit
Vocals: Sakamoto Maaya
Because we, who do nothing but searching
Are very similar, like a mirror
Though we connect just by facing each other
We still can’t touch each other
I strained my eyes
I reached out my hand
I’m sleeping like a fossil
I keep on waiting to be opened
The rain falls
Time expires
Hey, I, I want to know
What ‘to love’ is
If you smiled, the world
Would tremble a little and shine
Just like breathing, it started moving
We, who can’t protect anyone
Dashed out of the sleeping city
Turning into water
Turning into the wind
When we fight and struggle with each other
For gain, it’s futile
Even if I shouted, the world
Would turn its back on me without saying anything
Just as if testing me, it shoved me away
A moment
An eternity
The beginning
The very end
Hey, I, I want to know
What ‘to live’ is
If I asked, the world
Would tremble a little and shine
Now I’ll quietly release the truth that sleeps in me
...
and so let's go.
take the pinwheel and spin together.
for the chicken was meant to fly forever.
old world.
new song.
さいごの果実
歌:坂本真綾
作詞:坂本真綾
作曲:鈴木祥子
編曲:斉藤ネコ
探してばかりの僕たちは
鏡のようによく似てるから
向き合うだけで繋がるのに
触れ合うことはできないまま
目を凝らした
手を伸ばした
化石みたいに眠っている
開かれるのを待ち続ける
雨が降って
時は満ちて
ねぇ 僕は 僕は知りたい
愛するってどんなこと
君が微笑むと世界は
少し震えて輝いた
まるで呼吸するように動き出した
誰も守れない僕たちは
寝静まる街を駆け出した
水になって
風になって
手に入れるために争い
奪い合えば空しくて
僕が叫んでも世界は
何も言わずに背を向けた
まるで僕を試すように突き放した
一瞬を
永遠を
始まりを
最果てを
ねぇ 僕は 僕は知りたい
生きてくってどんなこと
僕が訊ねると世界は
少し震えて輝いた
僕に眠る真実を今静かに解き放つ
Saigo no Kajitsu
Vocals: Sakamoto Maaya
Sagashite bakari no boku-tachi wa
Kagami no you ni yoku niteru kara
Mukiau dake de tsunagaru no ni
Fureau koto wa dekinai mama
Me o korashita
Te o nobashita
Kaseki mitai ni nemutte iru
Hirakareru no o machitsuzukeru
Ame ga futte
Toki wa michite
Nee boku wa boku wa shiritai
Aisuru tte donna koto
Kimi ga hohoemu to sekai wa
Sukoshi furuete kagayaita
Maru de kokyuusuru you ni ugokidashita
Dare mo mamorenai boku-tachi wa
Neshizumaru machi o kakedashita
Mizu ni natte
Kaze ni natte
Te ni ireru tame ni arasoi
Ubaiaeba munashikute
Boku ga sakende mo sekai wa
Nani mo iwazu ni se o muketa
Maru de boku o tamesu you ni tsukihanashita
Isshun o
Eien o
Hajimari o
Saihate o
Nee boku wa boku wa shiritai
Ikiteku tte donna koto
Boku ga tazuneru to sekai wa
Sukoshi furuete kagayaita
Boku ni nemuru shinjitsu o ima shizuka ni tokihanatsu
The Last Fruit
Vocals: Sakamoto Maaya
Because we, who do nothing but searching
Are very similar, like a mirror
Though we connect just by facing each other
We still can’t touch each other
I strained my eyes
I reached out my hand
I’m sleeping like a fossil
I keep on waiting to be opened
The rain falls
Time expires
Hey, I, I want to know
What ‘to love’ is
If you smiled, the world
Would tremble a little and shine
Just like breathing, it started moving
We, who can’t protect anyone
Dashed out of the sleeping city
Turning into water
Turning into the wind
When we fight and struggle with each other
For gain, it’s futile
Even if I shouted, the world
Would turn its back on me without saying anything
Just as if testing me, it shoved me away
A moment
An eternity
The beginning
The very end
Hey, I, I want to know
What ‘to live’ is
If I asked, the world
Would tremble a little and shine
Now I’ll quietly release the truth that sleeps in me
...
and so let's go.
take the pinwheel and spin together.
for the chicken was meant to fly forever.
(Friday, January 18, 2008/9:24 AM)
almost there
三
packed bags in frenzy today.
got downstairs and ate.
got up bus.
er, letsee.
today we went to another cave.
shouting here and there and asking kee to drink the limestone water.
and i didn't see why a flashlight was needed.
anyway, got out of the cave.
forced to take pics.
went for lunch.
choke doesn't take anything but rice and chicken.
get on bus.
then visit some village.
watch kee lose at shooting darts.
more pics.
then got on bus again.
go KL.
check-in and stuff.
go to room. double-bed.
went to dinner.
went back.
go shaun's room.
fool around.
block tv.
start pillow fight.
go to debrief. abit late.
shaun was busy diverting his attention to something.
moved in to big hall.
got a short debrief. wrote reflection while listening.
also spotted some random feller wearing a shirt.
me and melvin lol like mad.
there that one.
meanwhile shaun still staring at >.>
go help buy water.
ice cream as treat.
gerard go copy me.
and he wanted to show-off to jack. good luck to him.
other than that it was pretty uneventful.
except i couldn't finish the tom yam with my throat.
and cx spilled water again.
四
i realise jap and chinese is the same.
pfft.
anyway.
get up early in chair.
good thing i decided to sleep there because later on there was no call.
and my alarm went on pm not am.
wash-up, go for breakfast.
vegetarian made me go =o
anyway got on bus.
went to forest walk.
the introduction guy was a joke.
but being a joke is what keeps people listening.
after long long long long long.
and tiring. walk.
got to the place.
started walking.
afk between bridges.
at the end must take picture.
sigh.
go on.
go down down down.
end up exhausted.
sing "hot" by avril lavigne.
stupid sun.
eat lunch.
the drink was like bleargh.
but better than no drink.
so drink.
go on bus.
old folks home.
it was pretty sad to see them all like that.
and we left so fast.
sigh.
the rest was again uneventful.
wanted to go LAN but ended up not going.
then went to arcade.
buy some ice cream.
eat some ice cream in shaun's room.
pillow fight. again.
then retire to my room.
五
wake up on time.
wash-up and go for breakfast.
another boring day.
city tour.
walked around.
doong bought a ball.
which went rolling down the road in a matter of 10 minutes.
sigh.
back on bus.
go for lunch.
then go to the "arcadia" place.
doong bought some sick mad mag.
i just bought an ordinary book.
went for lunch. berjaya times square.
it sucked.
sad knowing there's a good chicken rice store just 20 metres away.
sigh.
bought another 2 books at borders.
then went on the bus to the school.
got welcome.
blah blah blah.
watch match.
referee bias.
whatever.
why am i giving a damn anyway.
=o
got to the midvalley at 6pm
shop shop shop.
not alot actually. just 3 shirts.
ate dinner.
said something stupid.
fine. trust you to have good imagination
i take it back anyway.
sigh.
got back on bus.
go to hotel.
play abit of so-called snooker.
people got angry cos of the noise.
after room check went to shaun's room.
watch mortal kombat and american idol.
go back to room.
melvin comes to sleep on chair.
and that was it.
i guess.
六
because on this day.
we got on a bus.
went to visit the government area.
took one picture.
and then we were off home.
arrived at school at 4pm.
and that was it.
i guess.
pretty okay, no?
and now, back home.
i begin to think again.
btw, i don't remember alot of crazy parts.
obviously because i was going crazy too so i didn't remember.
so don't ask me to post abt retarded things.
till then.
三
packed bags in frenzy today.
got downstairs and ate.
got up bus.
er, letsee.
today we went to another cave.
shouting here and there and asking kee to drink the limestone water.
and i didn't see why a flashlight was needed.
anyway, got out of the cave.
forced to take pics.
went for lunch.
choke doesn't take anything but rice and chicken.
get on bus.
then visit some village.
watch kee lose at shooting darts.
more pics.
then got on bus again.
go KL.
check-in and stuff.
go to room. double-bed.
went to dinner.
went back.
go shaun's room.
fool around.
block tv.
start pillow fight.
go to debrief. abit late.
shaun was busy diverting his attention to something.
moved in to big hall.
got a short debrief. wrote reflection while listening.
also spotted some random feller wearing a shirt.
me and melvin lol like mad.
there that one.meanwhile shaun still staring at >.>
go help buy water.
ice cream as treat.
gerard go copy me.
and he wanted to show-off to jack. good luck to him.
other than that it was pretty uneventful.
except i couldn't finish the tom yam with my throat.
and cx spilled water again.
四
i realise jap and chinese is the same.
pfft.
anyway.
get up early in chair.
good thing i decided to sleep there because later on there was no call.
and my alarm went on pm not am.
wash-up, go for breakfast.
vegetarian made me go =o
anyway got on bus.
went to forest walk.
the introduction guy was a joke.
but being a joke is what keeps people listening.
after long long long long long.
and tiring. walk.
got to the place.
started walking.
afk between bridges.
at the end must take picture.
sigh.
go on.
go down down down.
end up exhausted.
sing "hot" by avril lavigne.
stupid sun.
eat lunch.
the drink was like bleargh.
but better than no drink.
so drink.
go on bus.
old folks home.
it was pretty sad to see them all like that.
and we left so fast.
sigh.
the rest was again uneventful.
wanted to go LAN but ended up not going.
then went to arcade.
buy some ice cream.
eat some ice cream in shaun's room.
pillow fight. again.
then retire to my room.
五
wake up on time.
wash-up and go for breakfast.
another boring day.
city tour.
walked around.
doong bought a ball.
which went rolling down the road in a matter of 10 minutes.
sigh.
back on bus.
go for lunch.
then go to the "arcadia" place.
doong bought some sick mad mag.
i just bought an ordinary book.
went for lunch. berjaya times square.
it sucked.
sad knowing there's a good chicken rice store just 20 metres away.
sigh.
bought another 2 books at borders.
then went on the bus to the school.
got welcome.
blah blah blah.
watch match.
referee bias.
whatever.
why am i giving a damn anyway.
=o
got to the midvalley at 6pm
shop shop shop.
not alot actually. just 3 shirts.
ate dinner.
said something stupid.
fine. trust you to have good imagination
i take it back anyway.
sigh.
got back on bus.
go to hotel.
play abit of so-called snooker.
people got angry cos of the noise.
after room check went to shaun's room.
watch mortal kombat and american idol.
go back to room.
melvin comes to sleep on chair.
and that was it.
i guess.
六
because on this day.
we got on a bus.
went to visit the government area.
took one picture.
and then we were off home.
arrived at school at 4pm.
and that was it.
i guess.
pretty okay, no?
and now, back home.
i begin to think again.
btw, i don't remember alot of crazy parts.
obviously because i was going crazy too so i didn't remember.
so don't ask me to post abt retarded things.
till then.
(Thursday, January 17, 2008/7:08 PM)
surprise, surprise
well.
i usually am a rather lazy person.
but since i have nothing better to do...
一
er.
come to think of it, there wasn't anything to do.
i guess just sat on the bus.
stopped twice or thrice.
by the time we got to the hotel it was evening.
and the lifts weren't cooperating.
dinner queue was long.
i had integrity.
the rest suffered retribution.
...
>.> <.<
had some games.
useless ones.
ended up being bored and now.
i don't remember much about that.
haha.
went back to room.
shower.
before sleeping read abit.
and that was it.
how pathetic?
二
woke up in the morning.
at least the breakfast crowd wasn't that bad.
but the lift was still argh.
after breakfast went for rafting.
waited for lorry. played game.
ended up doing push-ups.
sigh.
but for that guy to think 36 is enough he must be out of his mind.
got on lorry.
*fun part starts here*
the lorry was so shaky if you stand on the back.
which was what we were doing.
the handrail/whatever to hold you was that low.
so when the lorry turned we all screamed.
arrived at rafting site.
waited again.
put on safety gear.
swam to the start area. i realise how loser i am against rapids.
do last checks.
i am cold.
soon enough we set off.
before that we splash some other boats with water.
yay.
our boat was positioned last.
but we went so smoothly that every 5 minutes we had to stop and wait.
for some other boat.
sigh. oh well.
the points at my neck started to throb from the helmet.
paddled on and on.
so far the drops were okay.
i couldn't see how someone would drop off the boat.
maybe our boat was really too good.
we ended up getting stuck twice.
but we were so ahead that we unstuck that fast anyway.
so on we paddled.
i got very tired.
soon enough everything was pretty blur to me.
i just remember paddling.
lol.
but slowly we inched towards the end.
and i couldn't pull the boat up.
helmet and throbbing.
then we went to change to dry clothes.
lunch i couldn't really eat.
but we went to the next one shortly after.
this time we got a lorry that was fenced higher.
like those that carried pigs.
the platform was also higher.
so people got hit by more overhanging plants. alot actually.
anyway we got to the place.
so we got off the lorry.
something about problem solving, cave venturing and high elements.
to sum it up we finished them all.
not to mention it was fun.
i told you it was already.
sadly zak fell butt first in the cave.
so he emerged with >.> <.<
meanwhile zachary fell hands first.
so nathaniel emerged with >.> <.<
in the end we were pooped.
got onto lorry. now we were instructed to sit.
so we did.
good move teachers.
lucky there was no debrief.
we had to wait for the lift again anyway.
i wondered how my clothes and shoes would dry in 1 day.
they wouldn't.
so same procedure.
shower, watch espn.
sleep.
the rest i'll continue later or well. tomorrow.
dinner now.
till then.
well.
i usually am a rather lazy person.
but since i have nothing better to do...
一
er.
come to think of it, there wasn't anything to do.
i guess just sat on the bus.
stopped twice or thrice.
by the time we got to the hotel it was evening.
and the lifts weren't cooperating.
dinner queue was long.
i had integrity.
the rest suffered retribution.
...
>.> <.<
had some games.
useless ones.
ended up being bored and now.
i don't remember much about that.
haha.
went back to room.
shower.
before sleeping read abit.
and that was it.
how pathetic?
二
woke up in the morning.
at least the breakfast crowd wasn't that bad.
but the lift was still argh.
after breakfast went for rafting.
waited for lorry. played game.
ended up doing push-ups.
sigh.
but for that guy to think 36 is enough he must be out of his mind.
got on lorry.
*fun part starts here*
the lorry was so shaky if you stand on the back.
which was what we were doing.
the handrail/whatever to hold you was that low.
so when the lorry turned we all screamed.
arrived at rafting site.
waited again.
put on safety gear.
swam to the start area. i realise how loser i am against rapids.
do last checks.
i am cold.
soon enough we set off.
before that we splash some other boats with water.
yay.
our boat was positioned last.
but we went so smoothly that every 5 minutes we had to stop and wait.
for some other boat.
sigh. oh well.
the points at my neck started to throb from the helmet.
paddled on and on.
so far the drops were okay.
i couldn't see how someone would drop off the boat.
maybe our boat was really too good.
we ended up getting stuck twice.
but we were so ahead that we unstuck that fast anyway.
so on we paddled.
i got very tired.
soon enough everything was pretty blur to me.
i just remember paddling.
lol.
but slowly we inched towards the end.
and i couldn't pull the boat up.
helmet and throbbing.
then we went to change to dry clothes.
lunch i couldn't really eat.
but we went to the next one shortly after.
this time we got a lorry that was fenced higher.
like those that carried pigs.
the platform was also higher.
so people got hit by more overhanging plants. alot actually.
anyway we got to the place.
so we got off the lorry.
something about problem solving, cave venturing and high elements.
to sum it up we finished them all.
not to mention it was fun.
i told you it was already.
sadly zak fell butt first in the cave.
so he emerged with >.> <.<
meanwhile zachary fell hands first.
so nathaniel emerged with >.> <.<
in the end we were pooped.
got onto lorry. now we were instructed to sit.
so we did.
good move teachers.
lucky there was no debrief.
we had to wait for the lift again anyway.
i wondered how my clothes and shoes would dry in 1 day.
they wouldn't.
so same procedure.
shower, watch espn.
sleep.
the rest i'll continue later or well. tomorrow.
dinner now.
till then.
(Friday, January 11, 2008/11:46 PM)
and
i wanted to but you weren't around so...
take care of yourself.
no more hidey-hole for a week.
of course i'll be bringing my million bucks.
and of course i'll be reading it out of boredom.
perhaps.
maybe your prediction is coming true.
with that.
i bid you farewell.
you too, my dear.
blog.
i wanted to but you weren't around so...
take care of yourself.
no more hidey-hole for a week.
of course i'll be bringing my million bucks.
and of course i'll be reading it out of boredom.
perhaps.
maybe your prediction is coming true.
with that.
i bid you farewell.
you too, my dear.
blog.
(Tuesday, January 08, 2008/9:57 PM)
all beginnings
must come to an end.
after bored, scared, hooked moments of shooting, shocking, burning, freezing, swinging, tripping, laying traps, taking photos, looting, hacking and murdering.
bioshock is complete.
i was wondering how he could continue living on the outside world with that kind of mutated voice.
but oh well.
all wonderful and horrible beginnings must come to an end.
but the beginning is the end.
so with this, starts the beautiful venture to study harder.
oh well.
off i go.
and off you should go too.
one more for the camera.
must come to an end.
after bored, scared, hooked moments of shooting, shocking, burning, freezing, swinging, tripping, laying traps, taking photos, looting, hacking and murdering.
bioshock is complete.
i was wondering how he could continue living on the outside world with that kind of mutated voice.but oh well.
all wonderful and horrible beginnings must come to an end.
but the beginning is the end.
so with this, starts the beautiful venture to study harder.
oh well.
off i go.
and off you should go too.
one more for the camera.
(Saturday, January 05, 2008/10:28 AM)
dawn
and for today.
new song.
TEARS INFECTION
歌:KAORI
作詞:志倉千代丸
作曲:志倉千代丸
編曲:磯江俊道
息を殺して時を止める
終わりにしようこのメロディー
鋭い傷みが熱をさらい
黒く流れて瞳を閉じた
震えている 心の片隅に
キミが泣いていた
自分じゃない誰かの為なら
そう何かを 今変えられる
確信なんて ほど遠いけど
僕はただ…
閉じこめた記憶に キミを見つけ出したくて
素顔のままで あの場所に帰ろう
花びらも散るような 目に見えない風が吹き
つまずきながら 笑い返すよ
だからもう泣かないで 綺麗な未来が
僕らを必要としている
鈍色の箱古いレディオ
流れ出すのはあのメロディー
耳をふさいで逃げるのは何故
夢の続きは何処で見れるの？
絶え間もなく あの日の景色が
通り過ぎるから
一瞬でも素直になれるよ
そう何かを 今変えられる
答えはきっと何処にもないけど
真っ白な…
キミがキミのままで あの日に帰えれなくても
大事な事は この先に描こう
世界中どこかで 傷ついたり 笑ったり
今もこうして 時は続いてる
だからもう悲しみを 繰り返さずに
僕らは意味があってここに居る
僕はただ…
閉じこめた記憶に キミを見つけ出したくて
素顔のままで あの場所に帰ろう
花びらも散るような 目に見えない風が吹き
つまずきながら 笑い返すよ
だからもう泣かないで 綺麗な未来が
僕らを必要としている
TEARS INFECTION
KAORI
Iki o koroshite toki o tomeru
Owari ni shiyou kono merodi
Surudoi itami ga netsu o sarai
Kuroku nagarete hitomi o tojita
Furuete iru kokoro no katasumi ni
Kimi ga naite ita
Jibun ja nai dareka no tame nara
Sou nanika o ima kaerareru
Kakushin nante hodotooi kedo
Boku wa tada…
Tojikometa kioku ni kimi o mitsukedashitakute
Sugao no mama de ano basho ni kaerou
Hanabira mo chiru you na me ni mienai kaze ga fuki
Tsumazukinagara waraikaesu yo
Dakara mou nakanaide kirei na asu ga
Bokura o hitsuyou to shite iru
Nibiiro no hako furui redio
Nagaredasu no wa ano merodii
Mimi o fusaide nigeru no wa naze
Yume no tsuzuki wa doko de mireru no?
Taema mo naku ano hi no keshiki ga
Toorisugiru kara
Isshun de mo sunao ni nareru yo
Sou nanika o ima kaerareru
Kotae wa kitto doko ni mo nai kedo
Masshiro na…
Kimi ga kimi no mama de ano hi ni kaerenakute mo
Daiji na koto wa kono saki ni egaikou
Sekaijuu dokoka de kizutsuitari warattari
Ima mo koushite toki wa tsuzuiteru
Dakara mou kanashimi o kurikaesazu ni
Bokura wa imi ga atte koko ni iru
Boku wa tada…
Tojikometa kioku ni kimi o mitsukedashitakute
Sugao no mama de ano basho ni kaerou
Hanabira mo chiru you na me ni mienai kaze ga fuki
Tsumazukinagara waraikaesu yo
Dakara mou nakanaide kirei na asu ga
Bokura o hitsuyou to shite iru
TEARS INFECTION
KAORI
I hold my breath and stop the time
Let’s make this melody end
The sharp pain kidnapped my passion
I cried black tears and closed my eyes
In the corner of your trembling heart
You were crying
If it’s for someone else, not myself
Then yeah, I can change something now
My confidence is far off, but-
I’m just…
I want to find you in my locked-up memories
And while still with an honest face, I’ll return to that place
A wind that I can’t see, like how flower petals also scatter, blows
And while I stumble, I’ll laugh back at you
So please don’t cry anymore, a beautiful future
Is needing us
A dark gray box; an old radio
What drifts out is that melody
Why do you plug your ears and run away?
Where can I keep having my dream?
Because the scenery from that day
Passes by incessantly
Even if it’s for a moment, I can be honest
Yeah, I can change something now
The answer certainly won’t exist anywhere, but-
Pure white…
Even if you can’t return to that day while you’re still as you are
Let’s draw the important things ahead of this
Somewhere all over the world, we get hurt and laugh
Even now time continues on like this
So without repeating the sorrow anymore
We’re here with a meaning
I’m just…
I want to find you in my locked-up memories
And while still with an honest face, I’ll return to that place
A wind that I can’t see, like how flower petals also scatter, blows
And while I stumble, I’ll laugh back at you
So please don’t cry anymore, a beautiful future
Is needing us
...
today i see the papers and lo and behold.
some man bought the first release of 100 dollar oil just so that he could be famous.
and he sold it for a loss.
sigh. the things people do.
in other news.
i sighed because we were back to awkward silence.
and that's a wrap.
sigh.
if only the world would be less profound.
and for today.
new song.
TEARS INFECTION
歌:KAORI
作詞:志倉千代丸
作曲:志倉千代丸
編曲:磯江俊道
息を殺して時を止める
終わりにしようこのメロディー
鋭い傷みが熱をさらい
黒く流れて瞳を閉じた
震えている 心の片隅に
キミが泣いていた
自分じゃない誰かの為なら
そう何かを 今変えられる
確信なんて ほど遠いけど
僕はただ…
閉じこめた記憶に キミを見つけ出したくて
素顔のままで あの場所に帰ろう
花びらも散るような 目に見えない風が吹き
つまずきながら 笑い返すよ
だからもう泣かないで 綺麗な未来が
僕らを必要としている
鈍色の箱古いレディオ
流れ出すのはあのメロディー
耳をふさいで逃げるのは何故
夢の続きは何処で見れるの？
絶え間もなく あの日の景色が
通り過ぎるから
一瞬でも素直になれるよ
そう何かを 今変えられる
答えはきっと何処にもないけど
真っ白な…
キミがキミのままで あの日に帰えれなくても
大事な事は この先に描こう
世界中どこかで 傷ついたり 笑ったり
今もこうして 時は続いてる
だからもう悲しみを 繰り返さずに
僕らは意味があってここに居る
僕はただ…
閉じこめた記憶に キミを見つけ出したくて
素顔のままで あの場所に帰ろう
花びらも散るような 目に見えない風が吹き
つまずきながら 笑い返すよ
だからもう泣かないで 綺麗な未来が
僕らを必要としている
TEARS INFECTION
KAORI
Iki o koroshite toki o tomeru
Owari ni shiyou kono merodi
Surudoi itami ga netsu o sarai
Kuroku nagarete hitomi o tojita
Furuete iru kokoro no katasumi ni
Kimi ga naite ita
Jibun ja nai dareka no tame nara
Sou nanika o ima kaerareru
Kakushin nante hodotooi kedo
Boku wa tada…
Tojikometa kioku ni kimi o mitsukedashitakute
Sugao no mama de ano basho ni kaerou
Hanabira mo chiru you na me ni mienai kaze ga fuki
Tsumazukinagara waraikaesu yo
Dakara mou nakanaide kirei na asu ga
Bokura o hitsuyou to shite iru
Nibiiro no hako furui redio
Nagaredasu no wa ano merodii
Mimi o fusaide nigeru no wa naze
Yume no tsuzuki wa doko de mireru no?
Taema mo naku ano hi no keshiki ga
Toorisugiru kara
Isshun de mo sunao ni nareru yo
Sou nanika o ima kaerareru
Kotae wa kitto doko ni mo nai kedo
Masshiro na…
Kimi ga kimi no mama de ano hi ni kaerenakute mo
Daiji na koto wa kono saki ni egaikou
Sekaijuu dokoka de kizutsuitari warattari
Ima mo koushite toki wa tsuzuiteru
Dakara mou kanashimi o kurikaesazu ni
Bokura wa imi ga atte koko ni iru
Boku wa tada…
Tojikometa kioku ni kimi o mitsukedashitakute
Sugao no mama de ano basho ni kaerou
Hanabira mo chiru you na me ni mienai kaze ga fuki
Tsumazukinagara waraikaesu yo
Dakara mou nakanaide kirei na asu ga
Bokura o hitsuyou to shite iru
TEARS INFECTION
KAORI
I hold my breath and stop the time
Let’s make this melody end
The sharp pain kidnapped my passion
I cried black tears and closed my eyes
In the corner of your trembling heart
You were crying
If it’s for someone else, not myself
Then yeah, I can change something now
My confidence is far off, but-
I’m just…
I want to find you in my locked-up memories
And while still with an honest face, I’ll return to that place
A wind that I can’t see, like how flower petals also scatter, blows
And while I stumble, I’ll laugh back at you
So please don’t cry anymore, a beautiful future
Is needing us
A dark gray box; an old radio
What drifts out is that melody
Why do you plug your ears and run away?
Where can I keep having my dream?
Because the scenery from that day
Passes by incessantly
Even if it’s for a moment, I can be honest
Yeah, I can change something now
The answer certainly won’t exist anywhere, but-
Pure white…
Even if you can’t return to that day while you’re still as you are
Let’s draw the important things ahead of this
Somewhere all over the world, we get hurt and laugh
Even now time continues on like this
So without repeating the sorrow anymore
We’re here with a meaning
I’m just…
I want to find you in my locked-up memories
And while still with an honest face, I’ll return to that place
A wind that I can’t see, like how flower petals also scatter, blows
And while I stumble, I’ll laugh back at you
So please don’t cry anymore, a beautiful future
Is needing us
...
today i see the papers and lo and behold.
some man bought the first release of 100 dollar oil just so that he could be famous.
and he sold it for a loss.
sigh. the things people do.
in other news.
i sighed because we were back to awkward silence.
and that's a wrap.
sigh.
if only the world would be less profound.
(Friday, January 04, 2008/10:11 PM)
ばか
scary words.
how they try.
but cowardice doesn't rule.
we must fight.
and maintain our sanity.
okay fine i admit i have nothing better to say.
back to life.
scary words.
how they try.
but cowardice doesn't rule.
we must fight.
and maintain our sanity.
okay fine i admit i have nothing better to say.
back to life.
(Thursday, January 03, 2008/7:00 PM)
and
slowly as we go on
a hurdle appears.
the gears continue to turn.
and as we accelerate.
we are afraid to fall.
slowly as we go on
a hurdle appears.
the gears continue to turn.
and as we accelerate.
we are afraid to fall.
(Wednesday, January 02, 2008/8:43 PM)
次回
haha oh well.
time for the great rush.
with some oil the gears will start turning smoothly again.
and everything will be back to where we left it.
one more lap. one more year!
good job earth!
sigh so.
経験地序焼酎
シアワセを揭げて ドキドキ楽しんじゃおう！
経験值上昇☆見ててね（はいっ！）
M・I・N・A・M・I・K・E（Let's go）
M・I・N・A・M・I・K・E（Let's go）
Hi! Hi! Hi! Hi! Fu～
指差し確認で飛び込んだ月曜（Monday）
マイペース気取って 春夏秋登場（Who're you？）
ときめきのレシピは（FuFu）秘伝の一瞬にある（何って？）
みなみ風くるくる（来る来る）
スカートでバルーン飛行 Let's go! （は～いはいはいはい！）
シアワセを歌えば（Yeah）
きっとパワーになるよ（そうでしょ！）
日常の中にキラキラがある（は～いはいはいはい！）
つまんない事だって（Fu～）
軽やかステップで挨拶 ヘロー♪
ハッピーユニソン 空を駆けてく（はい）
M・I・N・A・M・I・K・E（Let's go）
M・I・N・A・M・I・K・E（Let's go）
Hi! Hi! Hi! Hi! Fu～
失敗は煎じて未来へと飲み下そう（まて）
苦笑いピース☆凹んだってさぁ行こう（サイコー）
笑顔の成份は（FuFu）ケンカでも満ちてく（なんで？）
小さな想い出も（メモメモ）
話せる君がいるから（は～いはいはいはい！）
伝えたいいキモチを（Yeah）
伝える努力しよう（も～っとね！）
息切れしないように 深呼吸してね！（は～いはいはいはい！）
わがままも一人じゃ（So）
上手く出来ない だからもっと
一緒にいたい 今が大好き（はいっ！）
シアワセを揭げて（Yeah）
ドキドキ楽しんじゃおう！（いつでも）
大切はそっと心のそばに（は～いはいはいはい！）
光の差す方へ（Fu～）
みなみ風 加速してゆくよ
経験值上昇☆見ててね（見ててね）
シアワセを歌えば（Yeah）
きっとパワーになるよ（そうでしょ！）
日常の中にキラキラがある（は～いはいはいはい！）
つまんない事だって（Fu～）
軽やかステップで挨拶 ヘロー♪
ハッピーユニソン 空を駆けてく（駆けてく）
わがままも一人じゃ（So）
上手く出来ない だからもっと
一緒にいたい 今が大好き（はいっ！）
M・I・N・A・M・I・K・E（Let's go）
M・I・N・A・M・I・K・E（Let's go）
M・I・N・A・M・I・K・E（Let's go）
Keikenchi Joushouchuu
shiawase o kakagete doki doki tanoshinjaou!
keikenchi joushou ☆ mitete ne (hai!)
M ・I ・N ・A ・M ・I ・K ・E (Let's go)
M ・I ・N ・A ・M ・I ・K ・E (Let's go)
Hi! Hi! Hi! Hi! Fu~
yubisashi kakunin de tobikonda getsuyou (Monday)
MAI PEESU kidotte shunkashuu toujou (Who're you?)
tokimeki no RESHIPI wa (FuFu) hiden no isshun ni aru (naze?)
minami kaze kuru kuru (kuru kuru)
SUKAATO de BARUUN hikou LET'S GO! (ha~i! hai hai hai!)
shiawase o utaeba (Yeah)
kitto PAWAA ni naru yo (sou desho!)
nichijou no naka ni kira kira ga aru (ha~i! hai hai hai!)
tsumannai koto datte (Fu~)
karoyaka SUTEPPU de aisatsu HEROO ♪
HAPPII UNIZON sora o kaketeku (hai)
M ・I ・N ・A ・M ・I ・K ・E (Let's go)
M ・I ・N ・A ・M ・I ・K ・E (Let's go)
Hi! Hi! Hi! Hi! Fu~
shippai wa senjite mirai he to nomihosou (mate)
nigawarai PIISU ☆ hekondatte saa ikou (saikou)
egao no seibun wa (FuFu) kenka demo michiteku (nande?)
chiisana omoide mo (MEMO MEMO)
hanaseru kimi ga iru kara (ha~i! hai hai hai!)
tsutaetai kimochi o (Yeah)
tsutaeru doryoku shiyou (mo~tto ne!)
ikigire shinai you ni shinkokyuu shite ne! (ha~i! hai hai hai!)
wagamama mo hitori ja (So)
umaku dekinai dakara motto
issho ni itai ima ga daisuki (hai!)
shiawase o kakagete (Yeah)
doki doki tanoshinjaou! (itsudemo)
taisetsu wa sotto kokoro no soba ni (ha~i! hai hai hai!)
hikari no sasu hou e (Fu~)
minami kaze kasokushiteyuku yo
keikenchi joushou ☆ mitete ne (mitete ne)
shiawase o utaeba (Yeah)
kitto PAWAA ni naru yo (sou desho!)
nichijou no naka ni kira kira ga aru (ha~i! hai hai hai!)
tsumannai koto datte (Fu~)
karoyaka SUTEPPU de aisatsu HEROO ♪
HAPPII UNIZON sora o kaketeku (kaketeku)
wagamama mo hitori ja (So)
umaku dekinai dakara motto
issho ni itai ima ga daisuki (hai!)
M ・I ・N ・A ・M ・I ・K ・E (Let's go)
M ・I ・N ・A ・M ・I ・K ・E (Let's go)
M ・I ・N ・A ・M ・I ・K ・E (Let's go)
haha oh well.
time for the great rush.
with some oil the gears will start turning smoothly again.
and everything will be back to where we left it.
one more lap. one more year!
good job earth!
sigh so.
経験地序焼酎
シアワセを揭げて ドキドキ楽しんじゃおう！
経験值上昇☆見ててね（はいっ！）
M・I・N・A・M・I・K・E（Let's go）
M・I・N・A・M・I・K・E（Let's go）
Hi! Hi! Hi! Hi! Fu～
指差し確認で飛び込んだ月曜（Monday）
マイペース気取って 春夏秋登場（Who're you？）
ときめきのレシピは（FuFu）秘伝の一瞬にある（何って？）
みなみ風くるくる（来る来る）
スカートでバルーン飛行 Let's go! （は～いはいはいはい！）
シアワセを歌えば（Yeah）
きっとパワーになるよ（そうでしょ！）
日常の中にキラキラがある（は～いはいはいはい！）
つまんない事だって（Fu～）
軽やかステップで挨拶 ヘロー♪
ハッピーユニソン 空を駆けてく（はい）
M・I・N・A・M・I・K・E（Let's go）
M・I・N・A・M・I・K・E（Let's go）
Hi! Hi! Hi! Hi! Fu～
失敗は煎じて未来へと飲み下そう（まて）
苦笑いピース☆凹んだってさぁ行こう（サイコー）
笑顔の成份は（FuFu）ケンカでも満ちてく（なんで？）
小さな想い出も（メモメモ）
話せる君がいるから（は～いはいはいはい！）
伝えたいいキモチを（Yeah）
伝える努力しよう（も～っとね！）
息切れしないように 深呼吸してね！（は～いはいはいはい！）
わがままも一人じゃ（So）
上手く出来ない だからもっと
一緒にいたい 今が大好き（はいっ！）
シアワセを揭げて（Yeah）
ドキドキ楽しんじゃおう！（いつでも）
大切はそっと心のそばに（は～いはいはいはい！）
光の差す方へ（Fu～）
みなみ風 加速してゆくよ
経験值上昇☆見ててね（見ててね）
シアワセを歌えば（Yeah）
きっとパワーになるよ（そうでしょ！）
日常の中にキラキラがある（は～いはいはいはい！）
つまんない事だって（Fu～）
軽やかステップで挨拶 ヘロー♪
ハッピーユニソン 空を駆けてく（駆けてく）
わがままも一人じゃ（So）
上手く出来ない だからもっと
一緒にいたい 今が大好き（はいっ！）
M・I・N・A・M・I・K・E（Let's go）
M・I・N・A・M・I・K・E（Let's go）
M・I・N・A・M・I・K・E（Let's go）
Keikenchi Joushouchuu
shiawase o kakagete doki doki tanoshinjaou!
keikenchi joushou ☆ mitete ne (hai!)
M ・I ・N ・A ・M ・I ・K ・E (Let's go)
M ・I ・N ・A ・M ・I ・K ・E (Let's go)
Hi! Hi! Hi! Hi! Fu~
yubisashi kakunin de tobikonda getsuyou (Monday)
MAI PEESU kidotte shunkashuu toujou (Who're you?)
tokimeki no RESHIPI wa (FuFu) hiden no isshun ni aru (naze?)
minami kaze kuru kuru (kuru kuru)
SUKAATO de BARUUN hikou LET'S GO! (ha~i! hai hai hai!)
shiawase o utaeba (Yeah)
kitto PAWAA ni naru yo (sou desho!)
nichijou no naka ni kira kira ga aru (ha~i! hai hai hai!)
tsumannai koto datte (Fu~)
karoyaka SUTEPPU de aisatsu HEROO ♪
HAPPII UNIZON sora o kaketeku (hai)
M ・I ・N ・A ・M ・I ・K ・E (Let's go)
M ・I ・N ・A ・M ・I ・K ・E (Let's go)
Hi! Hi! Hi! Hi! Fu~
shippai wa senjite mirai he to nomihosou (mate)
nigawarai PIISU ☆ hekondatte saa ikou (saikou)
egao no seibun wa (FuFu) kenka demo michiteku (nande?)
chiisana omoide mo (MEMO MEMO)
hanaseru kimi ga iru kara (ha~i! hai hai hai!)
tsutaetai kimochi o (Yeah)
tsutaeru doryoku shiyou (mo~tto ne!)
ikigire shinai you ni shinkokyuu shite ne! (ha~i! hai hai hai!)
wagamama mo hitori ja (So)
umaku dekinai dakara motto
issho ni itai ima ga daisuki (hai!)
shiawase o kakagete (Yeah)
doki doki tanoshinjaou! (itsudemo)
taisetsu wa sotto kokoro no soba ni (ha~i! hai hai hai!)
hikari no sasu hou e (Fu~)
minami kaze kasokushiteyuku yo
keikenchi joushou ☆ mitete ne (mitete ne)
shiawase o utaeba (Yeah)
kitto PAWAA ni naru yo (sou desho!)
nichijou no naka ni kira kira ga aru (ha~i! hai hai hai!)
tsumannai koto datte (Fu~)
karoyaka SUTEPPU de aisatsu HEROO ♪
HAPPII UNIZON sora o kaketeku (kaketeku)
wagamama mo hitori ja (So)
umaku dekinai dakara motto
issho ni itai ima ga daisuki (hai!)
M ・I ・N ・A ・M ・I ・K ・E (Let's go)
M ・I ・N ・A ・M ・I ・K ・E (Let's go)
M ・I ・N ・A ・M ・I ・K ・E (Let's go)
(Tuesday, January 01, 2008/6:35 PM)
front
back to life.
well that was a first.
and it was pretty mad.
but that's what makes firsts the most memorable.
at least there's still time.
i managed to forge a worksheet and type the stuff out.
lalala. good for me now i have another job to fall back on.
i wonder what to do now.
hmm.
sigh.
maybe just sit and wait for tomorrow to come.
since when haven't i anyway.
once it comes the old gears will start to turn again.
and we'll start our journey on a new revolution.
put all your dreams into the memories you don't want to forget.
and we'll make this a great round.
back to life.
well that was a first.
and it was pretty mad.
but that's what makes firsts the most memorable.
at least there's still time.
i managed to forge a worksheet and type the stuff out.
lalala. good for me now i have another job to fall back on.
i wonder what to do now.
hmm.
sigh.
maybe just sit and wait for tomorrow to come.
since when haven't i anyway.
once it comes the old gears will start to turn again.
and we'll start our journey on a new revolution.
put all your dreams into the memories you don't want to forget.
and we'll make this a great round.
(/12:41 AM)
CAPS
HI GAIS THIS IS MELWEH OMG I MANAGED TO HACK INTO SHING'S BLOG LIKE ZOMG CAPS LOCK IS CRUISE CONTROL FOR COOL.
LIKE WOW OMG ME AND SHING WERE LIKE ON SOME SUPER HYPER FAG MODE AND WE STARTED SPAMMING INVITES TO ALL THESE PPL IN MSN CONVO AND I ADMIT IT'S ALL YOUR DOING AND SHING WAS JUST BEING A GOOD SPORT LIKE HE ALWAYS IS HE IS A GOOD FRIEND UNLIKE ALL OF YOU NOOBS.
AND XP YOU ARE A BITCH.
ANYWAY IT WAS FUN AND TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO WEREN'T THERE TOO BAD FOR YOU LOSERS NO CHANCE TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS EVEN LEODENAI INVITED PPL LIKE COOLSAUCE AND PPL ENDED UP CALLING ME BOLIAO LIKE THAT'S SO COOL ANYWAY IT'S TIME FOR ME TO GO TO SLEEP THE RADIATION FROM NEW YEAR SMSES IS KILLING ME BAI NOW.
=D
HI GAIS THIS IS MELWEH OMG I MANAGED TO HACK INTO SHING'S BLOG LIKE ZOMG CAPS LOCK IS CRUISE CONTROL FOR COOL.
LIKE WOW OMG ME AND SHING WERE LIKE ON SOME SUPER HYPER FAG MODE AND WE STARTED SPAMMING INVITES TO ALL THESE PPL IN MSN CONVO AND I ADMIT IT'S ALL YOUR DOING AND SHING WAS JUST BEING A GOOD SPORT LIKE HE ALWAYS IS HE IS A GOOD FRIEND UNLIKE ALL OF YOU NOOBS.
AND XP YOU ARE A BITCH.
ANYWAY IT WAS FUN AND TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO WEREN'T THERE TOO BAD FOR YOU LOSERS NO CHANCE TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS EVEN LEODENAI INVITED PPL LIKE COOLSAUCE AND PPL ENDED UP CALLING ME BOLIAO LIKE THAT'S SO COOL ANYWAY IT'S TIME FOR ME TO GO TO SLEEP THE RADIATION FROM NEW YEAR SMSES IS KILLING ME BAI NOW.
=D